Saturday, 26 December 2015

20 is Beautiful | Life





Teenage is pretty, But 20 is Beautiful!

Exciting and scary for most of us, this might be the time where we learn to find our own path, create our own and discard all the teenage influence, peers, teachers, family or the opposite sex. In one way or the other, they tend to influence us, somehow force us to be what they want us to be, not anymore.
In our age, it’s a time when we’re either graduating from college, pursuing higher studies or seeking a job; anyway anyhow; we’re trying to be on our own. Without getting into the details (sabko sabkuch pata hai) we all spend a lot of time thinking about HOW to be like everyone else and be accepted.
What we don’t see yet, is that people are full of SHIT. INCLUDING ME! Most people take care of themselves first. We all think that money will solve all our problems, but it doesn’t. There are people who would pull you down, even walk all over you if they have to, and people who pursue money over all things are most problematic.

There are no clear-cut answers to most of the life's questions, and no, our life doesn't end if  we could longer impress our faculties or the next-door-SHARMAJI or DOOR KE RISHTEDAAR or work for the employer we worked so hard to impress in those interviews.

It takes TIME to understand that human nature is the common thread in all things human. And, in most cases it is problematic.

Within this period of my life, for me anyhow, came an epiphany. I realized these things and many more that I haven’t mentioned

And, I had a decision to make, either to man-up and face the bullets, be myself, be genuine, find my own path. Work on ways to be genuine, even if it meant taking those hard blows of blames, accusations and criticism or to stay down and keep running for a cover, a shelter in my comfort zone, hiding in the false security of a large company, or a small one for that matter. Do the boring and meaningless daily round of life, clock in, clock out, never make your own big decisions, get caught in the downward pull of credit cards, material possessions, and be a tiny ant among the crowd of others who's real value is to drive up the stock price of corporations, and make the very wealthy and powerful even more so.

When you're doing your own thing, you don't have to make allowances. But it's a tougher road. It's a better road, though. And you can find others like you. You can carve out your own place in the world.

You start looking at people differently. You start seeing yourself apart from the masses. Not better, just apart, as you start to think for yourself.

The other thing is, once you start being you, you're going to take some heat, actually a HELL LOT OF HEAT. Some of your friends will think you're crazy and stupid, that you’ve changed. You no longer have proper time for them, and say so, It's inevitable that you're going to lose most of them, too. If you make a sacrifice, e.g. start-up, you might end up not having a lot of cash for a while. I went through that. I made sacrifices, like cutting out budgets, hanging out less often, not buying new clothes for myself, etc. I was surprised to learn how many people decided I was a loser because of it. But I kept going, and I am still going. I ended up in the company of like-minded people, who came to know me, understand me, and accept me, and more than anything, support me. who made greater sacrifices than I did.
Soon I have to go someplace far away soon, but even then I have not given up on my path, and I know that I will always have a home for me to return to. I am still scared as hell and still need to figure everything out, but it does not matter!

If you’re reading this, all I can say is; this age is beautiful in all its imperfections. There will be times when you may feel suicidal, times where you’d think that broken hearts and shattered dreams will be the end of the line; but there’s a LOT more to it.



In the past, there will be nothing but regrets and the future holds nothing but uncertainty. Only in the PRESENT you’d find solace. 

Cry, Scream, Shout Sulk, Hate, Live, Laugh, Love; do everything that feels cliché, because it all comes down to TWO Important questions:-

  • One that the world will ask of you “WHAT have you done with your life”
  • Second, which you’d be answerable to yourself and yourself alone: “WHY did I do that”

The answers to these questions will never be simple, none of the life’s matter really are. But answering them will make you realize, Why 20 is beautiful.  

Sunday, 10 November 2013

Blog Trial




Well...
The Blog Title as you have it, has already shown, I am a total amateur in the Blogosphere as we have it, the only experience being with the Microblogging Birdie Twitter, where the tweets that go are only due to that being linked to my Facebook Account.

Washington always surrounded by some amazing people who updated their blogs, have read countless articles and compilations, and also witnessed some fabulous and magnificent creativity which have change the perception of art in my mind. But the idea of having one of my own came out of a moment of a eureka, to give this a shot to see what can I make of it.

This sure does require patience and a mind free of everything else that's going around, to write the best of what you can, Still I have chosen to write at a time like this, where there are other prior commitments that I am supposed to prioritize, a gazillion things running in my mind, Pre-university test and an Internal examination scheduled tomorrow. This isn't what I am supposed to do this moment, neither can this act be justified by any credence, prudence, knowledge or rationality. But this seems to be the right time, I may call it a change, or call it a break from everything else I am upto. I may not seem in control of myself, but possibly I am wanting to do this, and I am deliberately letting myself do, totally acting on my instinct.

I know what should I do to make this blog seem way better than it does right now, yet I want this to look shabby, messed up, menial, desperate, and haphazard. Because this is the first blog and I want this to be somewhat, Dirty.

Nonetheless, the idea of having a webpage that lets you have the best of it, and give you the bragging rights for that too, is fascinating. Will love to get more of this.


This is just another blogger entry out of the millions that are happening this moment, but it might be a leap of faith towards a way of conquering the mind and heart of people reading them, connecting them, hopefully showing them a reflection of themselves in these texts, wishfully inspiring some, and in the process, finding a part of me with every blog I post....